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a month from now marks a full year that i've been in this job, my second job. and i can't help but feel restless.

truth is, i don't know why i'm here and not pursuing my art. maybe because i can't afford to leech off my family in the event that i become unemployed. maybe because i'm not exactly sure yet as to what to do with my life.

i don't know.

all i know is, me and the corporate world don't seem to mix that well.

i'm beginning to loathe my job. here i am, slacking way off while my officemates go about being as productive as can be.

first week into the new year and i haven't even made an iota of company-related work. god, i want to resign right this instant. not that easy, though. got bills to pay.

funny, just before i got off college, i thought i had it all figured out. i thought i had all my dreams, albiet roughly, roadmapped.

and here i am, one and a half years into the corporate world and i don't know where to go.

where are you headed?
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sevenofeleven Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2005
If you can take your time and try to check out other jobs and try to find out what you want to really do.

Don't slack off until you have something else lined up. If you lose this job you will have to look for another one and you don't want to be fired for "Slacking off". You know the next job is going to check what you did at your last one.

Good luck.
lonewolf304 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hang in there master...
i have to be an IT person but I still draw
to the point that my parents fear me having
a Wacom tablet because that means I
will not sleep...

let's abuse art...she loves it...
scruffyronin Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Professional General Artist
if you got bills to worry about then stay there, look at it at a different perspective but don't forget to keep on honing your talent and that's what's important... keeping at it, no matter where you are.

that's what i did.

oh, yeah and me being a father of three didn't make it any easier but i sort of pulled through.

what work do you do, anyway?
chesterocampo Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Professional Digital Artist
I'm supposed to transfer licensed "cutesy" material onto MMS cellphones. The screen sizes are 160 x 120 and 128 x 128 PIXELS. I hate doing this but it's manageable.

Then I have to draw this licensed material within 72 x 28 PIXELS, BLACK AND WHITE. Now this is insane.
I don't mean to brag; I'm just being honest when I say that I can do a hell of a lot more than that. I used to do a hell of a lot more than that.

I used to do game design and pixel art for our mobile phone games (which are in full color and maximize the entire cellphone screen). I even did concept art and posters for these mobile games. But now we're shifting down to inane MMS and picture messages (the kind of work I avoided when I left my previous job). It's like we turned from Jurassic dragonflies to the primordial soup in the blink of an eye.

Bilib nga ako sa 'yo e. Hitched and with 3 kids to boot. And you still have the power to juggle it all along with your art. I am totally amazed by that.
scruffyronin Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Professional General Artist
actually, it's the only sane choice for me. but, i still try to follow my dream, kaya lang 'di na fulltime. guerilla tactics, kumbaga.

and, i don't have a social life and don't want one so, i can improve on my drawings which also answers how i'm able to juggle it all.

game design? far out, man! but how long has your company stopped doing that?
chesterocampo Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Professional Digital Artist
they started focusing on MMS and pic msgs back in October... no more games for us artists. and if ever we do get to develop games, it's the mind-numbing-don't-need-no-brain-power kinda game... *sigh*
scruffyronin Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2005  Professional General Artist
if you have a computer at home you can scratch you artistic itches or what have you, right?

is it safe to say that you're a game developer more than an illustrator or graphic artist? if you are, then, man! you're illustrations and graphic design are sweet, eventhough it's not your first love.
chesterocampo Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2005  Professional Digital Artist
actually, i'm first and foremost an artist. game design is a close secondary interest though. that's why i took it as an occupation. that's why it's a bit depressing that i'm not doing it anymore.

on a lighter note, some things are coming up that might make me have what i want (for now) after all. not necessarily in this company, though... ;)
scruffyronin Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2005  Professional General Artist
good for you, man.
paik Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005
Wow.. this is... unexpected..

i guess you have to set your priorities straight... i saw this on a jeep on the way here (school, i mean)-- sacrifice is the key to success. bullshit.
well, i'm taking up ECE... nothing to do with art. there were a lot of instances when i just want out, but the thought of supporting my family really stops me from taking that jump.

prioritize, man. sacrifice. even if it kills you. coz, yes, life's a bitch.
Dualmask Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005  Professional Digital Artist
You sound a lot like me. I hold a job that bores me to tears, a job I can't stand, purely because I have a house to maintain and a family to take care of. If it were up to me, my job would involve drawing 24/7. I'd give anything to leave my job and do something art related in my own career. I don't know exactly what the answer is, but all I can suggest is that you never lose that drive to do something better with your life, always seek to find that which makes you happy, even if it means taking some risks. Oh, and if you have a job that keeps your bills paid, try to focus on the time you aren't working to pursue finer interests. There are worse things than having a job you hate, like having a job that simply doesn't pay enough...
scruffyronin Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2005  Professional General Artist
i completely agree with what you said, man.
geezone Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005  Professional Digital Artist
I'm heading for the House of asked.

What exactly is your job, your tasks, I mean. Maybe you could try finding new life in it, if it's artistic...
Lelenia Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005
I worked in an insurance company for a year and a half. It was REALLY well-paying, the conditions were good, and with the money I made I could easily have supported myself for a good long while..... But I HATED it. After six months I just couldn't stand it anymore... The only thing that kept me working there was my decision to save the money I made there so I could go to an art school in another city! And that's what I'm doing now! I'm taking animation courses, I live off the money I saved and my boyfriend helps me out. I know I probably won't make much money when I'm done school, but art is one of those domains where you can go as far as your motivation takes least, that's what I believe!
ledhed Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005
Maybe you should have a rest. A real long rest.

I always thought art and business could mix in some way. That's why I took up Advertising.
But after reading this and having a prof hear that it's all about the MONEY, I am beginning to doubt if art and business (or the corporate world) could really mix.

How bout you? Why did you take AMG as a course?
Camen Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2005
I learned two things from my dad......first, it is better when you hate your jobs.....try to find a new one before you say quit.... second, whatever other jobs that you might find may not be any better than what you have now.....
dumaguete Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2005
i feel for you, boss...

you gotta do "forced art" so you could support YOUR art... :p
that's the way things are i guess...
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